Thoughts of you drift through my mind,

Like soft and fluffy dandelions;

The dreams I had for you, dear one,

Still warm my heart like the morning sun.

I’ll always wonder who you’d be

If you had lived with your Daddy and me.

A mother’s love never goes away

Even for one who lives far away.

I love you, and miss you, and always will

As I go through life on earth until;

One day when we meet on heavenly ground;

As we greet each other in Jesus’ presence

We’ll live forever in our home in heaven.

Then all the pain and all the sorrow

I’ve carried in my heart of hearts

Will be completely wiped away

And we’ll live together for eternity.

And the time that we have been apart

Since the day you were born and departed

Will seem like just a very short time

And the joy we’ll share will be sublime.

For Rachel; our lamb

who went to Jesus’s fold early.

by Cynthia A. Pye

Copyright 1994

Rachel was still born March 24, 1989. We knew that was a possibility for about the last couple of months of my pregnancy. I have believed Heaven existed  since before I can remember, but her going there made Heaven tangible to me. It became more real than I could have known, and that has been a great comfort to me ever since then. I already had close family members who I knew were there, but there was something different about my child being there now. I wrestled with that question that was like a borderline I danced on while trying to understand the truth of where she is now, and wanting the honest truth; not just tradition handed down to me by loving family and friends. I did my research and prayed a lot, and found the truth. This truth was and continues to be my rock. It is based on the Truth, and my Rock, which is Jesus. It took a process of time for me to “know in my knower” at my very core that Rachel is there with our Savior, Jesus.

Jesus demonstrated a special love for children. He stressed in Luke 18:16, “Permit the children to come to Me, and do not hinder them from coming to Me; for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these,” and Jesus also said in Mark 10:15 ” Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it at all.” Jesus had so many examples using the word children. They, and their general innocence of nature are dear to Him. I prayed and prayed for God to give me peace about where Rachel is, and just as important, I wanted to know the real truth about where she is. I didn’t want to hang on to false hope, but I wanted my hope to be reality. I know for a fact that I’ll see Rachel in Heaven one day. I’ll see her as well as the other three babies who beat us to Heaven, including our daughter, Elizabeth’s twin. I don’t know how much we’ll be loving on our babies, because I do know I’ll be worshiping the One who loved me enough to pay for my sins and conquer death so I can spend eternity with Him. I just know that everything will definitely be not just OK, but too awesome for words.

I truly hope that you have the Hope in your heart that I have in my heart. If you don’t, please talk to someone you trust. If you don’t know someone to talk to about knowing Jesus, you can go to my “How to Ask Jesus Into Your Heart” page,” or just message me in comments to this post. It’s not hard, and I do want to see you in Heaven one day if I never meet you here on earth.

Have a very blessed Easter season,

and Be blessed my friends.


6 thoughts on “THOUGHTS OF RACHEL

  1. A beautiful poem, Cindy. Would you permit me to use it next month in the church newsletter? It would be perfect for Mothers’ Day. I never knew Elizabeth had a twin. Thanks for sharing. Bless you in your writing. You have a wonderful message that inspires all of us. Love you.


    1. Sure you can, Mrs. Loma. A lot of people don’t know. We didn’t know we had lost that twin until I was about 16 weeks pregnant, and went for a detailed ultrasound. We’ll have a big family reunion when we get to Heaven on day.
      Thank you for your sweet comments. You’ve been one of those ladies who have encouraged me since I was young. Love you, too.


  2. Cindy, This poem and your unfailing faith in Jesus is a comfort to me. Don Piper’s “90 Minutes in Heaven” has helped me weather this storm. I believe him. No one could write such a book without having been there. Love you. Mama


    1. I understand about evidence of faith in God being a comfort; it’s the same with Roy’s and my kids. I have John Piper’s book, and it’s great. I also have the book, “Heaven is for Real,” by Todd Burpo and Lynn Vincent, about “a little boy’s astounding story of his trip to Heaven and back. There is no way in each book that someone could write such detail and it not have happened. I should have mentioned those books in my post.
      Love you, too!


  3. Cindy, this is such a bitter-sweet story. It made me cry. Having our hope in Heaven with Jesus gives us such comfort. We’ll all be together again. My uncle passed away this weekend and at his funeral on Monday, it made that hope even more real. It, too, was a bitter-sweet day.


    1. I know what you mean about the bitter-sweet, Carol. I’m sorry you’re separated from your uncle for now, but glad you know you’ll see him again. Going through Rachel’s short life here and home going made Heaven so concrete to me. It really does make that hope more real. Praying your heart heals quickly to be even stronger, and even more full of God’s love.
      Thank you so much for your friendship. 🙂


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